TarotBlogHop Samhain: The dark side

It’s time for another bloghop, this one I am rely exited about. First because I rely like the subject and second because Samhain is my favorite sabbath. So this post will come to you via the timed posting¬†function here on wordpress because I will be out¬†celebrating ūüôā¬†.

So the topic for this bloghop is: Explore your Shadow side. Isn’t that a wonderful topic?

For me a big part of Samhain is to¬†acknowledge and embrace the dark part of one self and of everything. It is a¬†opportunity¬†to understand that the¬†darkness¬†isn’t a bad thing per say. It’s just another part of everything and¬†whiteout¬†it ¬†the lighter part wouldn’t be light.

So what is my shadow side? Well to be honest, I have more than one… But the one that I’m going to wright about (I can’t wright about them all for then we would be here all week) is the one that¬†probably effects my¬†surrounding the most. From time to time I tend to¬†withdraw in to my self for a period of time. I get rely unsocial and¬†philosophical and… well deep and dark. I have been this way since I was a child, it’s my time to contemplate the world and to make¬†sense¬†of it all.¬†My dad was the same way, he also had his deep periods when he contemplated¬†life’s¬†great¬†mysteries.

Some times when I try to describe it to people it sounds like a depression, but¬†that’s¬†not ¬†what it is. I’m not depressed or sad, I just need to think and I often wright a lot during this periods, to get all of it out. It is during these periods I try to put words to what I¬†believe¬†and why and I reed books on philosophy and religion like crazy. So in a way it is during these periods of my life that I form the base on which I build my life. My¬†life philosophy is built during these periods.

Well, you might say, that¬†doesn’t¬†sound so dark or shadowy. Maybe not, but there is a down side to these periods and that is that the outer world become a minor thing for me. I’m so busy whit my own¬†thoughts that I forget there are other things and other people around me. So my family and friends get a bit¬†sidetracked and if they fore some reason¬†decide¬†I need to be more social and try to socialize whit me I’m not good company. I get grouchy and short¬†tempered because I don’t want to be¬†dragged¬†in to the real world, I’m not done whit my thinking. And I know I’m not the best company so I try to be happy and¬†listen but deep down I just wish that they would leave me alone.

These periods¬†usually¬†last a week or two and come around once or twice a year and I like them. I wouldn’t want to be¬†whiteout¬†them because so many people go¬†through life whiteout taking the time to think about things in their life. But I wish that they didn’t effect the people around me so much.

When I lay down my tarotcards and one of these periods are on their way the Hermit pops up constantly. And that is the card that I associate whit myself during these times.

Someone that is alone whit his or her thoughts, trying to find their way.

So that is one of my shadowsides. But I would like to wright a little about Samhain to. As I said, this is my all time¬†favorite¬†sabbath. It is the time when I celebrate the new year and that is one of the reasons I love it. It is the time when you can sit down and¬†really¬†look at yourself and your life and then decide what you like and what you don’t. It is the time for new¬†beginnings and of hope. There is an old saying “It’s always darkest before¬†dawn” and that is what Samhain is for me. The darkest period just¬†before¬†things get better, the dark that makes us¬†appreciate the light. For me the card of Samhain is:

The Wheel of Fortune, that reminds us that everything is moving forward but also in a circular way. It is never to late to start something new, to be a better person, the person you want to be. Nothing is stationary so why should you be?

And whit that my friends, I wish you a very happy Samhain, may the gods be whit you and don’t forget to hop on:

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